Day 56 of deployment

Well over 55 days have passed and at first It didn't seem so hard but as of a week and a half or two weeks ago things started get a little rough I was feeling hard on myself and sometimes barely getting by mixed in with days of fun and laughter I've been going to T ball games, school events, going to the gym, tanning, diaper changes, grocery runs and everyday life just keeps on coming. Today is day 56 and it's been pretty eventful after a nice relaxing birthday and the only thing that would have made it better is if he was here it would have been perfect but today I woke up with the kids and we have watch cartoons and been cleaning and I did two big things that my husband would normally do. First I fixed the TV which for some reason had only been putting out sound with no picture and I was pretty proud of myself for that then one by one I went through the toys and all the playthings of the girls and started getting a screwdriver out and replacing batteries so now all our toys are back up and running I even attempted the crib mobile projector thing I even put the toilet seat lid back on my toilet which for some reason when I went to my restroom it was on the floor I'll never figure out how that happened. and we have all as a family went through the rest of the boxes that were sitting in the corner since we moved in a few months ago and two of them now three are empty and we're getting ready for a garage sale to get stuff out and get things in and just right so I'm getting along pretty well. The kids are growing faster than ever it seems and while the laundry pile just keeps growing just like they do we all are having a good time celebrating with sloppy joes, birthday cake, barbecue chicken, and all the good stuff of life. Another day gone now on to the next.  :)

My First Booking

I have spent every bit of the last couple hours researching site after site of hotels for my mother's day vacation.  It's my last few days this year to get to spend with just my husband.  I read all different list of amenities and attractions. Pouring through list of rates only to get more confused by the second.  I had to completely focus so that I chose just the right place.  I finally just picked up the phone and called to figure it out and try and get what I want.  After freaking out over how much it cost we finally figured it out and not to much damage done. And then after all this stressing over getting just the right thing for as good a price I can find. The following second after I've made my reservation and sent a message to my husband to let him know it's taken care of. I think to myself it really doesn't matter if we don't like it as long as we're together is all that matters. ..... well why wasn't I thinking like that beforehand?  But either way I'm excited! Vacation coming up and I booked our first vacation room.

Aint it funny? Having Daughters

Well let me start with I was a girl raised with boys who ended up being a mom of 2 boys and I really pictured me with 4 sons. I of course wanted a little girl so bad but after having 2 boys I just didnt think it would happen since I am used to more boy play and sports I was good with this. I figured it would just be harder for me to have a girl cause boys were easy its just play, eat and play some more.  When I found out I was having not 1 but 2 girls I was  over the moon spinning in visions of tutus and bows, sparkles and all. I envisioned always having them in a tutu everyday  and oh the bows! Being money smart and knowing I was getting twice the joy I made my first tutu while pregnant and also learned how to make bows. I really thought id be putting bows in their heads everyday as I see alot of other of my moms and friends and relatives do. I have bows and the bigger the better right?  I've recieved compliments on them when the girls  do wear them. Now my girls are 9 months and during several special occasions and photo shoots I leave the bows at home. Ive realized that as a mom of my daughters I just marvel at how beautiful they are a lot of the time.  I think they are so perfect they just dont need a thing. Sometimes I even take off their dresses just to get pictures of just them while they play focusing on their smiles and beautiful lil faces God  has blessed them with.  I think alot about why I do this but it just comes down to the fact that they are beautifully perfect just how they are I dont want the focus to be on the big bow or pretty dress theyve got on I want them to just shine. And when I thought of this I think of how important it is to teach them this that they are beautiful and need nothing. How many little girls think they need a bow to be cute or as they get older they only feel pretty in a pretty dress and think they need all those ribbons and curls and it just goes on to makeup and on and on? Now im not saying I wont dress them up from time to time but I know its much more important that they know just how beautiful they are and they dont need a stitch to improve on or change for any reason. So make sure your telling ur lil princess how u love her everyday and all the time not just when all decked out. I just think its funny how I expected to be a certain way with my girls but im really a totally different way now that I'm actually in the role.  Society really pushes that as a female you need all this extra unnecessary stuff to get through each day. But we dont. Were all beautiful and perfect just the way we are and we should embrace it. Ad a mom make sure you are practicing this yourself so that your setting the right example. Aint it funny by having girls im learning to be a better woman myself?  Thats right. I want to set a good strong example. :)