Back to Being Just Momma

So through a series of events I came to a crossroads I could hope for some kind of discount in order to keep my kids in daycare or I could give it up and just keep them myself. 
I realized that my youngest boy will start school come fall and the girls are just days away from beginning to walk and I decided to just give it all up and at least for this summer no work just all play.  Now I know not everyday is going to be easy but it is going to be fun. 
I'm trusting in God to make the finances work even without my little bit that I had been working for to save for a family vehicle.  I'm sure it will be more than worth it to teach my kids during the next few months and get to see the first steps and hear the first sentences from my twins. Help J on his numbers and letters and help my oldest expand his growing interest! 
Well I've had the kiddos nearly a week by myself now and I love it!  Absolutely forgot what a natural skill I have at being a full time mom. 
This picture is from my first big grocery shopping trip just me and my 3 under 3 :) Thank goodness for the buggies with multiple kid seats or I woulda had to wait for help.  The trip to the store was great, one baby slept the whole time and my youngest was just wide eyed and smiling at all the new surroundings and people she saw.   But about the time I rolled up to checkout she quietly decided to take a lil nap.  I felt so bad but was glad I was on my way out the door already.  The rest of the day had a full schedule from school events to a baseball game and yes I even pulled off dinner.  Smooth sailing so far along with reading my Bible and paying for God's help everyday he must be listening and I'm glad cause my kids deserve their mom and I'm glad that it's me that gets that job! 

Stupid Grass

Stupid grass, quit yelling at me.  Why do you persist? I am strong but you grow longer. Everyday a constant reminder of another day without him. You keep screaming at me, hes gone, its been so long and theres nothing you can do about it. I have to tread through you reminding me how far away he is everyday. I cut you down but you keep coming back and I just cant keep up like he can. You scream again as I pull in kids and groceries in tow another sign hes not by my side today,  hes still away fighting through the day.  Your just so simple why is it so hard to see you everyday?  Grass how is it youve made me cry? Not the empty bed, the kids, the pile of dirty laundry or dishes, not the bills, errands, or dog that needs to be fed have caused me to shed a tear. But you, you mean green grass keep yelling at me everyday.  Im sick of it you stupid grass. Good bye

A Sick Day and Chairs

Well I woke up in a panic this morning because I rolled over to find my 3 year old in my bed and he felt hot as fire to the touch so I frantically sought out the thermometer to find a temp of 101.7!  My baby was sick so in went the medicine and on with a cold wet wash cloth. After I got the rest of the kids on with their day his fever had broken and I was relieved and he just slept.  I was supposed to be working today and I can honestly say I have never been so glad to have to stay home.  I myself needed a day off so I saw the opportunity to baby my son all day and take care of him a welcome relief.  Now thinking about it I must be running myself near ragged to feel that way, but its true.   I took a break even still with a list of things to do I just crawled back in bed and cuddled with him we slept till noon and when he got up no fever and told me it was time to get up! So we did and then I felt bad for getting him out to run a few errands but to the pharmacy and grocery store we had to go.   I then turned on some of his favorite requested cartoons and was able to get a few things done.  I made some signs for the upcoming garage sale this weekend and then I put together the girls new high chairs! So yes I enjoyed the alone time just me and my pumpkin and I was productive!  Now on to see what tomorrow brings.