Been gone sleeping or wishing I was alseep

Happy December 1st! Not only have I neglected my blog but also much of my life lately but with good reason... I now spend my days in bed sleeping in not able to get up to even take my oldest to school and within an hour of being up with my toddler I'm wishing its noon and time for OUR nap time already I'm drained to say the least.  If I'm not walking around wishing i was in bed I'm sitting around feeling completely sick and at the very tip top edge of about toss up whatever it is Ive had to eat.  Ive been wanting to blog as I feel its a need since I've fallen into the black hole of existence right now I don't even like to talk on the phone because you guessed it the more I speak the closer I get to throwing up. I also keep putting off blogging because I know its going to come across as negative which its seeming to do so already but I'm a person focuses on the positive and tries never to give the negative even a sliver of a chance in my life. That being said the constant extreme fatigue and nausea doesn't mean I'm not a happy person because I am very happy I'm just also very sick right now so much so that it mostly covers up the happiness I have inside because inside of me I'm completely excited and little frazzled because of so much excitement that my body is extra busy at work providing a life support system for 2 babies! I found out about a month ago that I'm having twins! I knew about 2 weeks before that that I was having twins its just a mothers intuition on these things :) But I will say seeing that sonogram and my 2 babies and 2 separate little heartbeats is a moment I will never forget overwhelmingly blessed is how I describe the feeling then within seconds my mind raced to all the complications and extra things I know can come along with a twin pregnancy but so far so good I'm about 10 weeks no due date set yet and getting closer to ending my first trimester in which case the nausea and some of the fatigue might lay off. I cant wait for the day! but until then I'm off to take a nap while my 2 year old is still sleeping and before my oldest gets home from school :)