Well its been 281 days since my kiddos have said goodbye to their daddy while he left off to once again defend our freedom :) I just finished wrapping the gifts daddy sent home for us to all open on Christmas morning. Here at home the boys have been having so much fun with their friends outside playing, sliding, throwing the ice/snow for hours each day. It may actually warm up enough to start melting it today which will be good for me because I've got a birthday party to throw come Monday! So Ice Ice you've had your stay I think today is the day you head on your way!
I am happy to share after the last nearly two weeks being in a deep depression and added to it my baby had the Flu (poor girl) so I was literally stuck at home taking care of her while trying to deal with myself and keep my head up despite how crappy I felt about life...I finally woke up and could feel the clearing had come. I was so happy to wake up and feel not weighed down....unless you have personally battled with depression you won't understand...and that's ok be Happy! cause you should :) This last bout was probably the worst Ive had ever....I was in the same clothes for literally 3 days...gross and my body ached so bad it was just plain stupid. I kept thinking at least if I'm going to hurt this bad it should be because Ive worked my muscles and tooshy off at the gym....but no I had been at home sleeping 12+ hours a day, not leaving or stepping in the public eye for over a week so I knew what It was weighing me down and dragging me along..mmmhmmmm pesky D had found its way back in. But as now I can light heartedly write about it and actually smile and look ahead to the day I am SO glad. I broke outta my funk I'm sure somebody prayed for me that day and Thank you from the bottom of my heart cause this momma sure needed it. The holidays have been really awful without my husband here but were nearly through the celebrating (Thank God) its beyond my strength to pretend to be happy when I'm not. Everyone around me can tell when I'm not myself and how could I be? Its not hard to imagine the difficulty we as a family are facing right now. But thank goodness for technology and the USPS we've sent gifts, received gifts, and should be able to somewhat share Christmas Day together and I cant wait! Even if it is through the camera lens that's alright with me just turn on the Wi-Fi and Smile!
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