Old Comfort, New Life

So were finally to the end of the deployment. 2013 was for us a year of pause.  We put our lives on pause and sometimes it skipped without us being able to control it much. Many doctor visits, trips to the e.r., plumbing problems galore, vehicle maintenance and beyond, kids growing with out assistance everyday but for the most part we put our life on pause as much as possible the day he walked out that door and on to foreign soil for us. Now the year is ending and a new year begins, a year of life on Play once again and I cant wait! To get back to our everyday, our normal, our happy. So I found this new flag and I fell in love with the burlap and monogram. Burlap a thing of the past but somehow after being put away for years is now part of everyday life again its in with the new, the now. This flag simple in its being represents so much more its hung by a woman frantically getting her house in order inside and out to get ready for a heroes welcome. A life to live and start anew even being gone through so much in the past and holding strong thru time we as a family will be like a new shiny find in the middle of an ordinary day.  

After Christmas

We made it through Christmas it went very well. I had such a get great day and so did the kids we had family time food time game time and more. Then as excitedly as I Christmas shop I get to go after Christmas shop. This year this is the ornament I picked out to represent this year as we made it through our first Christmas as a family apart yet together the man of our household and each one of us all proudly supporting each other in freedom and faith . I can't wait for next year as he returns and our family is complete again and all the good times to come.

Not Christmas for Me

Well I pushed through. Successfully put up lights on the outside hung some inside for a little extra magic. We hung the stockings and put up the tree got all of it decorated and ready. But no matter what I keep putting a smile on my face it still doesn't seem like Christmas in our space. Without our soldier home I keep a brave face on just for the kids hoping that their Christmas will be bright and happy. But no matter what I do it's still just doesn't seem like Christmas I'm already ready to take down the Christmas tree and pack it all up. I know that wouldn't be the right thing to do for the kids so with about 5 days left till Christmas I'm forcing myself to keep it all up to look cheery and Brite but truthfully I'd be much happier with it all put away just as another day waiting on him to come home. But merry Christmas to everyone we love you all be glad for our freedom to celebrate it all.

2 New Things at the Gym

So I'm definitely not doing good as far as my overall health and fitness goals or expectations and I feel as if its been a year since ive been to the gym but since my schedule has slowed due to no sports right now and being stuck inside with the cold weather I'm finding during the last few hours of the day my kids seem restless and I feel like I'm gonna go coo coo from not getting out of the house.  So I had an idea why don't we go to the gym! So ive made apts all this week in an effort to save my sanity if not my waistline at the same time and booked the entire week.  Like I imagined it was great I even bumped into my brother when I got there so that was a pleasant surprise and sign that I so should be there.
But there are a couple lessons I learned today for future trips to the gym. First try and remember to change the babies diapers before we leave. On that note also I realized in the hectic rush that I had jumped on the elliptical with a full face of makeup...that my dear friends is not good for your skin when you sweat and are wiping your face constantly.  Also knowing theres no way I can make the time with the kids running around stir crazy for me to wash my face beforehand so how do we fix this dilemma? I have the perfect answer! It looks like this: example above and below

 

 

That's right gonna get the Mary Kay Skinvigorate Brush and a 3 in 1 cleanser just for my gym bag! That way I can run in when I go pre workout potty I can pre workout wash all my makeup off and do it quickly but more importantly for me thoroughly for me and I can even easily work my way around the eye area so I at least still have some eyeliner n mascara on so I look alive...plus my eyelids don't sweat.  I already usually post workout wash my face to get off all the sweat out of my pores so this is a no brainer!!
If you think this idea is as genius as I do and want to join me feel free to visit AWESOME MK LADY!!! and order yours or of course order from your own Mary Kay Beauty Consultant if you already have one. 

Day 281 a scrambled holiday mess

Well its been 281 days since my kiddos have said goodbye to their daddy while he left off to once again defend our freedom :) I just finished wrapping the gifts daddy sent home for us to all open on Christmas morning. Here at home the boys have been having so much fun with their friends outside playing, sliding, throwing the ice/snow for hours each day.  It may actually warm up enough to start melting it today which will be good for me because I've got a birthday party to throw come Monday!  So Ice Ice you've had your stay I think today is the day you head on your way!
 I am happy to share after the last nearly two weeks being in a deep depression and added to it my baby had the Flu (poor girl) so I was literally stuck at home taking care of her while trying to deal with myself and keep my head up despite how crappy I felt about life...I finally woke up and could feel the clearing had come.  I was so happy to wake up and feel not weighed down....unless you have personally battled with depression you won't understand...and that's ok be Happy! cause you should :) This last bout was probably the worst Ive had ever....I was in the same clothes for literally 3 days...gross and my body ached so bad it was just plain stupid. I kept thinking at least if I'm going to hurt this bad it should be because Ive worked my muscles and tooshy off at the gym....but no I had been at home sleeping 12+ hours a day,  not leaving or stepping in the public eye for over a week so I knew what It was weighing me down and dragging me along..mmmhmmmm pesky D had found its way back in. But as now I can light heartedly write about it and actually smile and look ahead to the day I am SO glad.  I broke outta my funk I'm sure somebody prayed for me that day and Thank you from the bottom of my heart cause this momma sure needed it.  The holidays have been really awful without my husband here but were nearly through the celebrating (Thank God) its beyond my strength to pretend to be happy when I'm not. Everyone around me can tell when I'm not myself and how could I be? Its not hard to imagine the difficulty we as a family are facing right now.  But thank goodness for technology and the USPS we've sent gifts, received gifts, and should be able to somewhat share Christmas Day together and I cant wait!  Even if it is through the camera lens that's alright with me just turn on the Wi-Fi and Smile!